Coma

Coma,

Bleep, Bleep, Bleep, Bleep
Black is the choking emotion
In this one ICU hospital room
Filled with foreign sounds

Watching you on death bed
Breathing tubes in your head
Memories and dreams of us
Numbing tears it surrounds

This deadly room I sit in
Many who have died within
Souls screaming of departed
Not ready to leave yet darted

Accidents of life and mistakes
The reaper awaits and takes
These spirits to go unwilling
Ominous feeling so chilling

Wishing it was I and not you
Feeling sickly faint I sit on bed
Taking away your pain so blue
Last drop of blood I give to you

Please accept it sis and do take
It is all I have left and is not fake
Of my love you never believed
Are you happy now?
You must be oh so relieved!

As I gently touch your warm hand
You are unable to see my true fear
Yet I trust you do feel me near
Please do not die my dear sister

My anger and fear is yes, so sinister
Emotions boiling hot with icy shards
How frivolously you have played
Your aces were such perfect cards

I reveal to you in my silence
Your choices repelled my guidance
You always reject and refuse
Repulse to heat up like a fuse

All I want to do is shake you
Hug you, smack and awake you
Cry and laugh with you again
And heal to take away your pain

I cannot believe you did suicide
Never would I approve or coincide
This is nonsense and so appalling
Breaking down in tears I am falling

So stupid you self-centred brat
I scatter my love to you like rat
Yet you abuse and let it decay
Rotting in fungus to you I lay

You are so selfish to do this now
We both promised in a sister vow
To be there for each other always
Helping, laughing till our old days

It is a nightmare and is not real
This pinching feeling hurt I feel
Your face is so pale and lifeless
Yet to me you are purely priceless

I scream inside so piercing loud
Wake up, wake up, wake up now
You must live again and get help
My throat is so dry of my yelp

Though it is so useless for me to tell
You lay there under a coma spell
Who am I kidding I wish to die
Beside you comatose I want to lie

We are all here mother, father and I
Begging mercifully to open one eye
Tell us you can hear and all is well
I am unable any longer reality tell

My brain swollen from endless tears
Wishing so hard and jabbing fears
My stomach hurts of hot cinder coals
I relive your coma in hospital walls

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